And since it's fresh in my mind after reading pages in here....I can't just let things go.
BC..It's not that people don't care. Some of us out here in never never land have been through some s#it in life too. We may have even had the same thoughts. I can write a list of things that I have experience in. That's exactly what it is too experience. How you view it and handle it is what makes or breaks you. No one here can tell you how to do that( some of us are still working through our own battles). We're all friends and can even relate to each other on a lot of things...But the minute I think I've had it rough? I see that there are people out there that have been through and over came much worse. How could I even relate to what they have been through? The opposite applies too.... Most of us have no clue what your going through. We can try with what experience that we have, it's all different depending on so many different ways to view things.....but if the worst thing someone has is losing a pet? They have no idea. Just throwing that as a extreme example.
You can't come in and elude or flat out start the suicide stuff( again). People will only listen and try to help for so long then they don't want to hear it for multiple reasons. You can get through it!!! I know people that have been through way way worse. Not downplaying your situation at all,. Just saying you do have the strength...you just have to grab it, no one else can do that for you. It's not easy man!! I've been on the roller coaster ride half my life. Just when you think things are looking up and your past it? Something else major hits. It's just experience and you can overcome it. Be happy for the good! It's ok to talk about your experiences...but don't chase the sympathy.. I will talk about anything on here in conversation..but I don't want sympathy from anyone, it's just sharing the experience.
Anyhow....I just had to write that...This same stuff went on in the past and you have to create a different view for yourself. A different perception. It is possible...Not saying it's easy either..You will fall every once in a while, I do all the time...Then I have to take a breath...sit back...and realize things could be much worse.. Everyone does fall too! That's not abnormal.. Life isn't like the TV shows. But it's not all that bad either, You have to try to focus on the good., my biggest fear is that it's going to end early...so I sure as hell don't want to hear that someone is just going to give up on theirs. Kinda ticks me off actually.
Sry to bring up something that was pages ago... Just hits a nerve...again...I do feel bad for what you are and have gone through...But I don't want to hear the suicide stuff...I have no sympathy for it. If you can't value your life? Then how can you be upset at the people that don't want to hear it? Think about that a little...I think You will find the value. It's in there. Glad to see that your back..Not glad to see the suicide talk, or elude to..
And for anyone that feels I'm being too harsh? I can explain a little more detail in PM....I'm not going to air it here. There is some past here with this topic. This wasn't sent in PM for a reason.
Had a great run,outside temp 60....GOD I love this thing 
