I hear ya brother. Been on disabilty now for four years. 5 brain surgeries and two strokes. So trying to support wife and 3 kids now (had 5 during that time) on limited income. Who would've thought, retired at 40 and didn't win lottery. Blew threw the savings and still trying to cope. Been detecting and saving the clad and been prospecting. Not rich yet. Lol. But at least finding some gold. Wish I started these hobbies when able to run the hills, but at least my diggings are close to the beating path.
Keep up the fight. Hope you've got family. My wife's still around. Can't believe that. I guess I'm lucky she puts up with me.
If you're ever in Arizona I could take ya out to do some prospecting or hunt some parks. Or we could collect brass in the desert.