I'm going to let you in on a secret..at night like now... everything I say that seems inflated..that is me stuck in a younger state of mind!
Pure fantasy.
Me trying to escape the fact that the end is near.
Stress.
I shut down at night.
I don't know who I am!
God is wanting to take my love away from me!
Did I revive her after the last seizure or was it God allowing me to ?
No one can answer that question.
Without her..
I'm nothing.